It's not the best month...

this month didn't turn out well, just like our ups and downs... but i think lately... too many things has been happening that puts me in a very very very lousy mood.

firstly i have certain issues with my father... and he didn't take it very well... now he is prob thinking: "how did my son turn out to be like this?" and it is very... disrupting especially during our family time.

then my com something wrong and cannot connect to the internet... so had to reformat and then after reformatting the system didn't turn out quite right... so still working on it... and it's a little frustrating.

running down on flu and feeling very lethargic...

running out of friends to chat with cos they're all either busy or on holiday or on exams... don't take me wrong though... just that sometimes it's a little upsetting to realize that i have no one to turn to...

then next was my results... have to repeat one more sem cos i blanked out in one of the papers so i'm going back for one sem for ONE module... so sian but i think this mainly was the trigger... i made an appeal but i doubt that will pull me through after speaking to the lecturer...

for the first time in such a long while i feel so lost... i have no where to go, i don't know where to go, i don't know who to talk to at the same time feel that i might be boring them with my problems... i'm so depressed till i can break down any moment now...

i'm running out of things to do... running out of movies to watch... and i don't know wat to do... i stay up all night thinking about my life and how it will turn out to be... and i have forgotten all my goals and motivation to do wat i wanna do...

over the last few weeks i've been so depressed that i don't even know wat i want anymore...