Hmmm...

well a lot has been on my mind recently... i'm not sure if it's just me or really i have so many troubles to think about... but come to think of it... how many of u guys know me for someone who has troubles?

well it's not really troublesome to go deep into thoughts... but now that there are so many i guess the impact of having to worry for something or someone has taken it's toll...

and yeah most of the advise i expect pple to give me is: "talk about it". well when it comes to that... i don't know where to start... there's just too many to think about...

maybe a few wires are screwed wrongly and maybe i should just spend some time in solitude... u think?

then after all these thoughts... my mind just goes blank and i get snapped back to reality just for a second... then all these thoughts just start filling me up again... like right now...

close pple around me are having their own troubles... it's improper for me to approch them... and now the old method... one that i have not used in a very long time is to depend on ones self again... not easy but i have to i guess...

family, friends... relationships with them are all the same... just that family relationship are more indept and that they are blood related... well at least for some pple... and maybe a bf or a gf that you can count on?... oh wait... well they have their own problems too... maybe it currently is with u and that u have to settle this despite all the other problems u're having...

just how sad is life sometimes... it's through these times that we see life as a nothing but a burden... anger, fustrations, being short fused... all these negative feelings fills u up like a volcano awaiting to erupt or already has...

so... if there was one person... who can let you see that u're such a wonderful person, that you have made impact on others more than you know it... that you are the most important person... way more important than any other problems that you may encounter... and that you have the ability to shun away these bolders blocking your path... well i can say it's only YOU...