I donno wat's going on anymore

sometimes when i come to a point where i am all bottled up... i don't even realise it myself... then i start to get angry easily and tend to blame everyone around me... it is till that time where i realised i got too many things capped under a small box where it's worn and tearing apart... seeing one's life as it is has made me think a lot of wat i should do... but i get confused even after thinking so hard... like getting lost in my own maze... being lost is not where i wanna be...

now pple might say try to relax and try not to think so much... though i know it myself and have done just that it seems it's only helping me a little... it doesn't allow me to see small things i've already seen... and by my own... self reflect on wat i have done... after much relaxing i sorted few things out... and i find my mind a wee bit stretched...

exams are coming up... i'm so not ready and i'm afraid... even knowing that starting now would help that same fear keeps coming back... everytime i grit my teeth and find the courage to take the next step forward... it slips away... it's maddening!

now i am not sure if i am doing the right thing in my mind... nor do i expect anyone to guide me back to the path which i have once walked on... all i know is that i'm worn out... mentally and maybe slightly physically... and i wonder right now whether i should be alone or be talking to someone about wat i'm going through... even if i find someone to talk to i'm not sure whether i can put it down in words... right now i know that i'm like a weakly constructed building collapsing... trying my very best to keep my feet on the ground even though the top has fallen... even knowing wat lies ahead...