i'm all tied up...

hi guys... today was a really... suffocating day for me... not at the shop but more at home... parents quarrel and they are not talking to each other even when they have to talk... sometimes i wonder y they are even married if they have so much differences...

I think it sort of started out in the car though i wasn't there at that time... cos my aunt and uncle went to malaysia and my grandma is living alone for about a week... so my dad was asking my mom whether she wanna go... obviously my mom will be tired after work so she explained to my dad then my dad got all angry saying: "DON'T WANNA GO THEN SAT DON'T WANNA GO LAR TALK SO MUCH". i was like "wat's with that attitude man?" these few days he has giving in to his anger so much even when i'm walking in the house his voice echos pass the walls...

I think my dad is complete mental... he says it's always not fair for him to say sorry... then if it's not his fault then y should he even say sorry? if it's meant for patching back then this 'sorry" is better than not saying anything... he's like the boss in the house... and it seems he's the only one who can get angry in the house... when others like my sis or my mom get's sngry he blows his top saying 'LIKE THAT THEN DON'T LIVE WITH EACH OTHER!!!' wat bull shit... then he might as well move out from the house since he's the one causing all the problems... but wait... he doesn't even realise it himself... wat a load of crap...

last night i was talking to my mom... she mentioned one part that my dad is always noticing and always affect by wat others do... if things don't go his way he get's angry... another load of crap... he everytime say life is this, life is that... but he didn't apply wat he taught others into his own life cos this is also another part of life... somethings don't happen to go your way... so live with it man... not that i'm all great or wat but i'm trying to accept these things in life... also at the same time i know wat's best for me so i'll do things my way and try not to get others be affected...

somehow when these things happens it makes me think a lot... in the negative way... and sometimes i just feel like blowing up... wish i had someone to talk to in person though... but of course if my dear friends are busy obviously i won't pester them to come out... and i got some online friends like zann but i think it's not fair cos she has her own problems currently and by saying these things will only bring down her mood...

tml going to work... tonight got to finish my maths... then wed afternoon the 2 rascals coming over to stay... and i am hoping someone will call me out for late coffee tonight... but i don't wanna go too far... but anyway i'll do my maths first before anything else... got to have a rest so peace...