Boring... but i get to realise...

hello people... i know... kinna long since i blogged.. but here i am... at it again... here to voice out everything i've been trying to keep hush hush about...

firstly i'm still doing ok... nothing to worry about... maybe just emotional issues that just keep coming back to bother me... and maybe some pressure of school work to add to it...

now i'm at OOP... a new module... something like computer programming... kinna boring thought the indian teacher is trying to make us understand... anyway next week is his test... have to study though i have not been paying much attention to this module... then last tuesday was kinna thw sway day for me... all the questions even in different modules are all practically the hardest to answer... and there i was standing there like a jackass trying to do the question... well these things happen...

other than that... nothing much... playing games like O2jam... and i'm trying to get into gunbound... nothing muchto play... all online games so if i got no internet... there goes my games...

last couple of weeks has let me thinking whether i do fit into my sec school friends... of course not all of them i don't fit... people like ebel and ong where i can relate very easily to becomes very easy to start a conversation with... btw bell... i know u're handling a lot of pressure at work but hey... u're better off compared to some others who don't even understand the meaning of work pressure right? u're already one level up... though not a very nice way to express it but i'm here when ever u need me... and ong... long time no see... meet up again soon?

anyway back to the not fitting part... sometimes just don't feel that connection... poly friends has different interest... but at least they mingle with me... only person i can click with is bryan only... sad but it's enough... then about chan and boon... till now i don't feel... maybe i rephrase... after so long... i should have felt that special connection between me and chan like i share with darren and me... but till now... nothing... not that i'm thinking too much but it's just there...

for example... when boon said "i fucking own you ah" to chan... they both laugh their head off but i don't even find that funny... not even the slightest bit... and sometimes i find going down to punggol have coffee with chan a chore cos after work go there damn tired... then like no mood to talk... then everything seems to turn off... no energy no mood but still since i'm there i have to squeeze out some energy to last me for the night... then go home about 12 plus... sleep in at about 1 plus then next morning wake up no energy... even my granny said that i loose my focus when i'm working... then sometimes call him come down pasir ris his tone just give him away that says "i don't wanna go down"... but of course who wants to go down to have coffee so far practically every sat night... but sometimes in my opinion too much to have a friend come down all the time to your place... wa lao... buay pai seh ah... no offence chan but it's just too much for me... and i don't think i wanna go down there for a while... with all the school work and everything coming on me... i just am too tired to go down to your place...

but despite everything... i came to realise that school is important... and if i slack like the last year... i'm so gonna fail this year...

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Yati: of course we're doing fine... everything's going smooth so far... but of course not as smooth as compared to lsat time... and hui tan is at amore fitness centre working at the front desk... at the semei outlet in east point... can go visit her sometimes...