wat am i doing?

recently talked a lot with my dear friends... donno wat i'm up to lately...been doing things on my own free will... supposed to study nv study... supposed not to blog cos i need to study i go blog... well since i've realised it i'm gonna make this a short one...

Darren, Juan and Long came to my house few days back... before that went to bugis to check out a few things... then after that darren and long had to go off... so left me and Juan all alone... so happed to talk about y i didn't had a gf... bla bla all that kinna questions from Juan... which sort of reminded me when i was back in sec 3 when 4 ladies... Ariane, Xiao Yi, Yvonne and i think Sin Sing locked me up in the council room and asked me questions about my personal life... u know all that "y u don't have gf?" "y u nv like any girl before?" that kinna questions... but anyway back to Juan and me... i told Juan that if i was a girl i think it would be hard to accept who i am now... then she goes all that "ok wat u... i think u're very gentlemen-like" that kinna praises... but hey these are only one sided views... i got a lot of bad points that i don't think i wanna mention... so yeah... point taken? wat am i doing really? asking all these questions and expressing all these thoughts...

now come to think of it i don't think i'm affected or in other words "jealous" for others having a gf and all that... maybe cos i like my single life and that the love i get from my family and friends are enough to fill up that "empty space" inside my heart? oh well only time will tell

then been asking bell out... i know she's kinna busy and all and i'm not blaming her for not coming down but just that sometimes i think it's best to lay back a while and just talk with a good old friend over coffee... but anyway my decision of asking bell out was last min and she's the only one living nearby to actually come out on such short notice... the rest i don't think it's very nice to call cos they all living futher so... yeah... i guess u know wat i meant...so gonna bathe... hopefully find the mood to study and then off to bed.. tml i took off so gonna stay at home and study... if ever anyone reads this by tml night ask me out for coffee tml night... well just hoping someone would even though it's the exams the next day... peace!